It has been some years now, Lord, since the dream began. The only thing that compels me to move forward in embracing this dream is my inability to find any reason not to.

You remember the little conversation we had some years back which changed my life, don’t you? I told you that I wouldn’t turn back, no matter what. I was foolish. And at times, it seems quite difficult to continue living in such folly even though I mean never to go back on my word.

The truth is, sometimes I live out the ideals of this dream whilst consciously knowing that they’re impractical and that there’s no guarantee it’ll all work out the way I hope it will. But I guess I didn’t embrace the dream because of its practicality. I embraced it because I know it’s your dream.

But then there are times, like now, when I place that dream in front of me once again and find a reason to keep walking in such foolishness. It gets harder, Lord. Especially at times when the fulfilment of this dream seems to be getting nowhere and few seem to understand the reason for this madness.

On the one hand, I hear your voice saying, “You must believe. It’s my dream you’re sharing in, and what I say shall come to pass”. On the other hand, the accomplishment of the dream often seems madly impossible.

At this moment, I’m the personification of a plethora of contradictions.

I need to know that this dream is more than just a wishful thought, that it is a reflection of a reality that is yet unseen.